Heartsick

by Dryvia

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'Heartsick' LP was written by Dryvia. All instruments were recorded by ourselves, mixed and mastered in No Silence Sound Studio, by Istvan Simon.

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released May 22, 2014

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Track Name: 28.06.42.12
I'm tired of fighting,
I'm tired of seeking refuge in my mind.
Track Name: Sleep
I was stalking you for a while
without any purpose.
Not knowing what the end would be...
Not knowing, not caring
by any means.
Just longed for something that I could feel.

Maybe I was sitting to much on my own,
without anything to concentrate on.
Shivering from the fear of you or anyone...
These things inside me will kill me if they stay,
but I guess just noone cares at all...

NOONE CARES!

I am so fucking lonely,
but I don't want you to hear these words,
'cuase with you, I feel like I'm just as on my own.
The whole world is crashing over me,
and I lack the courage to carry on.

Have you ever tried to reach out,
for something that isn't yours?
Have you ever tried to run away,
when all doors are closed?
I guess it's funny, how selfish we are,
when it comes to taking a step,
but when there's both hell, above and below,
my voice will echo in your head.

Some stairs are always hard to climb,
and there's no easy way up.
How can you walk with your head held high,
when people are watching to see you die?

I wanted to fall asleep...
Dream this whole life in my head.
Escape from everything,
and never wake up again.


We must burn all these bridges down!

The distance between us
is wider the closer we get.
But the more you are slipping away,
the more you'll stick into my head.

I wanted to fall asleep...
Dream this whole life in my head.
Escape from everything,
and never wake up again...
I wanted to fall asleep,
in your arms,
escape from everyone,
and leave behind my scars.

You were my shelter,
you were my grave.
I was always awake...
You were my shelter,
you were my grave.
I was always awake,
to watch you,
in your sleep...
Track Name: City of Hate
Mark these words, before you burn them away.
'Cause these are the last...
I will not follow your way,
you're just my past.
You're just my past...

My words are valueless,
but even if in vain,
I will shout to you and envy you for unknowing the pain.
You caused to all the people
you showed them your back,
maybe we weren't loved ones but you will never forget-

It's your time to choose,
if you're falling in pieces...
It's your time to choose.

Look around it's the city of hate.
They will take away all of your fate.
Better times are sure not to follow .
The tree you climbed ,will be your gallow.

In your hand is the key to choose.

And i hope, you'll choose wisely...
Now you must choose!
In your hand is the key to choose,
and I hope that you'll choose wisely.

All these people want to take the better of me,
but with time I'll see where you all get to.
Killing my dreams, killing me...
I will never let you do so.

To take away every joy,
to take away my life.

All of you judged me for what I am not,
but your ship is sinking your crew will die out.

In my hand is the key to choose,
and I must leave you here, behind me.
In my hand is the key to choose,
and in your eyes I see the hate.

All these people want to take the better of me,
but with time I'll see where you all get to.
Killing my dreams, killing me...
I will never let you do so.

To do all these things to me...
To do this to me...

Here I stand and I know,
I could never give up.
From the ashes of your hate,
I will build love.
As your false friendships will fade away,
your emptiness will stay.

And I am not sorry...
for you.

All these faces they have nothing to offer to me,
all these faces they have nothing to offer to me.
These faces they have nothing to offer to me...
These faces they have nothing to offer to me...
They have nothing to offer to me...
Track Name: My Home
We cut out our scars,
just to forget,
but when there's nothing left to cut out,
what will be left?

Giving up my chances,
ready to fall,
even if i die with it,
this time it's all,
all for you...

Red hair and pins,
all around my bed.
Our shadows took our first moves,
but i have no regret.
Ask no questions,
the answers lie ahead.
If you're willing to come with me,
I'll take you to the end. (Soaked up all tears, been awake for a while,)
To the end... (but I will never let you down.)
One-sided games to fill this everlasting hole inside. (Outcasted , rejected)
Hole inside... (Waiting to die.)
Never let you down...
Never bring you down...

It's hard to find the words,
to describe how I feel.
So I'll use yours as mine,
you're everything to me!
Everything...


When I was looking in the mirror,
it got nothing to reflect.
when i look into your eyes,
I know who i really am.
I wish to remember
every day we have.
Witness every pain
and happiness ahead.
You are everything.(Everything...)
You are everything,
you are my home.
Ask no questions,
the answers lie ahead.
if you're willing to come with me,
I'll take you to the end.
Ask no questions, ask no questions...
If you're willing to come with me,
I'll take you to the end.
Track Name: Teeth of The Crocodile
Wasted hours of my life I spent on living here...
Never loved ,never been loved never took care.
Tried to give the world something and I know it wasn't much,
nothing i got back not even a touch...

I'll make you pay for everything,
for everything...
All your white lies shackled with my vice
to get your pain returned,
to give pain in return...

I hate people so much, it's shame that I am one of them...
I hate people so much, I'm no longer one of them...

I'll tear this skin off that warps around me,
their bodies will be toys in my hand.
Make them suffer, fill them with fear.
It's a shame that i am one of them...
I'll tear this skin off that warps around me,
I'm no longer one of them...
Nobody listens to your cries.
You'll pray for hell in the end.

I should have warned you,
what's behind the mask,
but in my chase walls don't have ears,
and years passed so fast...
All my wounds that cankered,
were deep inside my heart,
I gave to you what was left of it, in the dark...

How many times should I tell that I have had enough of you...
All men ,women and children will stand into my queue.
Beware: The old fool Mercy won't be praying for your names,
'cause he knows better than all we do: you won't rest in peace in my graves...

What have I become?
Is this what I wanted?
Is this just a dream,
or this will be our last breath?
I know there's no going back,
'cause I got so fucking far...
So i'll finish my job,
as well as you all...

And you'll die...And you'll die...
And you'll die...And you'll die...
And you'll die...And you'll die...
And you'll die...And you'll die...
And you'll die...And you'll die...
And I'll be the last one to die...
Track Name: Hope And Savior
Our hope and savior,
our fear of loss,
they say if we are brave,
victory comes...
Giving up years
to shine for seconds,
but in the end
none of that matters...
Am I still broken?
Am I still chasing the truth?
Am I still waiting for you,
to overcome your rules?
Dissapointments are born,
where promises are made,
and i'm sure that I'm
not the only one
who thinks this way.
I will not demand any love,
or hate on command.
What you give away,
noone could give you back...

Where is you hope? Who is your savior?

There's always something left to prove,
with every step we take.
we can alway look back of us
to see how far we made.
With every question you ask you picked up
every piece and bit.
The mirror shows you the way
but you have to walk through it.
Progress is a matter of time,
and there is no such thing as fate...
Your hope, your savior, your fear of loss,
you are what you build.
Look at yourself,
wave goodbye to your fears.
Look at yourself...

I've said my goodbyes to
everyone of you.
I'm leaving it behind
this is all i can do.
I guess it's time to move
along my way.
I will never forget you,
you will never forget me...
I will never forget you,
you will never forget me...
I will never forget you,
you will never forget me...
Track Name: The Stone Heats From Below
How Can I make your tears go away?
Break all blind eyes' lock.
How Can I make the deaf ones hear,
The unstoppable beat of the clock.
As we hang around each other's neck,
memories in my head...
But kissing your face feels,
like choking myself to death.

I know you all think that we're lost,
cursed by the same rise and fall.
But what you desire the most,
means nothing to us at all.
You think we should feel guilty,
for not being what you are?
But I'd rather die trying,
than not trying at all.

And there we stood, seeking the truth.
About each other and everything.
I'm so sorry that I couldn't tell you,
cannot forgive, never will.

I'm tired of fighting,
I'm tired of seeking refuge in my mind.
I'm tired of seeking refuge in my mind.

If I could have it my way,
I would move everyhting to break free.
If I could have it my way,
I would steal the sky for you and me.
You think it's easy to be in my shoes?
You think I got nothing to loose?
But you won't like that part:
It's what it's like to be teared apart...

These tears on my cheek are shameless,
cause they did not fall in vain.
Every one of them is a symbol,
marks that i can wear.
They make me go further,
they make me not to die,
for feelings born within me,
It's the only way out.

I hope someday you'll understand a thing:
The part of me that you hate so much,
is the mirror deep dug in.

What's born in me will die in me, and you can't make a change...

If I could have it my way
I would move everyhting to break free
If I could have it my way
I would steal the sky for you and me.
You think it's easy to be in my shoes?
You think I got nothing to loose?
But you won't like that part:
It's what it's like to be teared apart
When you're heartsick tears you apart...

And there we stood seeking the truth.
About each other and everything.
Fought the words that couldn't come out,
locked them up inside me...
Track Name: Formlessness
High above the mountains,
high above time.
There I was born,
there I am fine.
Faces of death and sorrow will align,
but here I was born , here I am fine.
Formlessness is mine, formlessness is me.
The Sky himself will fall on his knees.
Here you'll repeat all your evil deed,
mistakes...Is that where this leads?
Formlessness is mine, formlessness is me.
The sky himself will fall on his knees.

I'll wait, I'll wait for things to change.
I'll wait, I'll wait for you to change.

Where you dreaming all this time?
Where have you been?
The only survior.
The only one with guilt.
The only.
This surgery you put me through,
Is beyond everything I wanted to take, to take,
but I kept breathing under water for your sake.
You know what they say?
Do you even care?
Do we all deserve to die,
In this lonely haze of time?
Do we all feel free,
When we write down the first line?
Depressed, detest, obsession adressed
lessons in the nest, are the past.
Will success be my revenge,
or faliure your essence?
To fight for what is good,
or at least, what is thought to be good...
What is thought to be good.
Nevermind we keep trying
to reach what we are crying for.
This is our secret lore,
a sinking ship,
without a harbour.
Or maybe this means war.
This means war!
Not between you and me:
Between us all...
Track Name: They Will Never Let Me Go
I stare at my own reflection,
wishing a way out this place.
I think it's my false intention,
that leaves you all without a trace.
I stare at my own reflection,
wishing a way out this place.
I think it's my false intention,
and I could never get away...

They see everything, every fucking thing,
I cannot hide, I cannot go...
The hours pass so slow...
I cannot take them any fucking more.

Disgusting crowds, they are searching for me,
they watch me day by day, I just want them to go away.
My hands are shaking, I don't know why.
The voices, they tell me, I'm sure they wouldn't lie...

Now it's reaching me ! Now it's reaching me! Now it's reaching me, reaching for me!

You left us dead!
You left us dead!
You left us dead!
Inside our head!

You left me dead
inside my head,
behind locked doors,
behind this...

And now i'm facing something that I could never leave,
lies I own so precious lies...
They will never let me go, never let me go...

If all those stars were lies,
they would dance over our heads!
They will shine through our path,
until the end.
And all those thoughts,
I hide under my bed,
the false recollections,
they'll never leave my head...

These visons, they hunt me down!
These visons, they hunt me down!

They will never let me go...
They will never let me...
they will never let me go ...
never let me go...
never let me go...
let me go...
let me go...
let me go...
let me go...
let me go!
Track Name: Heartsick
We are so desperate, to make this on our own.
We step on each other, to get towards our goals,
but don't forget that heaven is the place called hell,
if you're walking all alone, and noone awaits you there...

They admire their own perfection,
they admire their own belifes,
but can they look further,
and see what we see?
I want to have faith in the things that I love,
for the sake of it, I carried this pain along...
I doesn't matter when I almost gave it up,
if it's you, if It's me, or a spirit above.

In the back of my head...

Tonight is not tomorrow,
and let this be our ease.
(In the back of my head.)
If the sun turns to black,
the moon will light our ways.
(In the back of my head.)
Tonight is not tomorrow,
and hope for a soon relief.
(In the back of my head.)
Past and future to erase...

I carried this feeling so far, and now it's glued to my hands...
I carried this feeling so far, and I no longer beg for amends.


This heartsick won't tears us apart,
we'll be awake, we'll guide you through.
This heartsick won't tears us apart,
we'll be awake, we'll guide you through.


Tonight is not tomorrow,
and let this be our ease.
If the sun turns to black,
the moon will light our ways.
Tonight is not tomorrow,
and hope for a soon relief.
Past and future to erase...